jeremy borger [blog]

Okay, okay, okay… People have been bothering me…

Okay, okay, okay… People have been bothering me to update this blog. It was much easier when no one liked me or cared what I had to say.

I’m convinced some women are using the information contained in this blog to try and sneak over the walls I have built up around me. Never! It does make me wonder how much information I should put into this blog. Eh, screw it…

Some people lately have been picking up on the deeper side of me. Here’s the normal progression of feelings people have about me, starting from when they first meet me: (there’s always exceptions depending on the situation, but here’s how it generally goes…)

1) At first I come across as a nice guy. Polite. Normal. Maybe even a tad quiet or shy. I’m introverted.

2) Then people start to see my sense of humor as I either warm up to them or warm up to the group or situation I’m in. From there on out, “funny” is usually the number one adjective used to describe me. Some people who know me may have skipped right over “First Level of Knowing Jeremy” and gone right into this level. That’s probably because I was in a situation or group I was already familiar and comfortable with.

3) Lately, most new people I’m met have met me in some sort of group, social situation. When I’m in the partying mode, (in other words, when I’m drinking) I become more bold, confident and flirtatious. I know! Hard to believe… I think this “Third Level of Knowing Jeremy” has caused some rumors to float around out there lately… Don’t believe everything you hear.

4) Now this stage is harder to reach. People will see it if they hang out with me one-on-one on a regular basis in a non-partying situation. It will also sometimes come out in partying/social situations, usually when the alcohol starts to wear off or I get in some melancholy mood. Perceptive friends are able to catch on to this, but they might interpret it in different ways. Some may think it’s just a one-time type of thing and ask, “What’s wrong?” Some think it’s the “real me” coming through and that the partying side is just a facade. Others realize it’s just another, deeper part of my personality. Some are surprised by it. Yes, not only am I funny and enjoy a good shot of Jager, but I can talk about religion and politics. I actually have deeper emotions and feelings. And I keep a blog that probably tells too much…

Most people are this way. If you’re only as deep as Level 3, you’re shallow. These different aspects of our personality make up who we are. Although I’ve run into some people that wished I just stayed in the same gear all the time. A friend of mine this weekend said (and I paraphrase), “Jeremy, there’s two different sides of you. There’s the side that reads books in Starbucks and then there’s the side of you that’s a jerk.” Except she didn’t say jerk. It was a little harsher than that. But I really don’t think I’m mean to people. I just think there’s people that don’t understand me. Or they want me to be a certain way and when I’m not, they get upset. That’s fine. But I’m not going to change for them.

Level 4 is somewhat broad. Realizing I have that deeper side to my personality is one thing. Really getting me to open that side up to you and conversing with it is another. And I suppose there are other levels beyond 4. But no one’s been there in a long time.

Well, a blog post really isn’t complete without a link. And I don’t want to end on a down note. So, my buddy Marcus (or “Goldfather”) has a blog that talks about the party scene around Cleveland in a way only Marcus can. It’s a good read. So go find out what’s happening around town. Maybe you’ll run into Level 3 Jeremy out there…