jeremy borger [blog]

I’m tired. Tired of trying to do good and never b…

I’m tired. Tired of trying to do good and never being rewarded for it. Tired of trying to be someone I’m not just so I won’t be lonely. Tired of games, of fakeness, of vanity. Tired of trying to find meaning in a lost world. Tired of people not caring. Tired of trying to care myself.

We create so many distractions for ourselves as if we’re trying to escape something. And I don’t want to do that anymore. And I don’t want to put all this effort into finding “friends” because it seems to me that you shouldn’t have to work for friends. Common interests, goals and beliefs should unite you. I think that me not seeking out others is going to make me lonely, but maybe I was lonely already and just didn’t realize it.